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I have been accused of tracing by people on Tumblr and now on DeviantArt. I am seriously done with this place. I'm sorry I try drawing anatomically correct and actually work my ass off to make them legitimate. I am sorry I draw from observation and use stock photos to correct whatever I don't yet know about anatomy and all of that, because clearly I should know everything beforehand and I shouldn't ever try learning something from everything I do. I am sick and tired of people who have nothing better to do than to fuck up their lives by going completely virtual and fucking other people up. I can't take it anymore. I came here and got a Tumblr as well so I can share whatever I do and learn and connect/have a conversation with others. But clearly that isn't enough for some of you since you get so easily butthurt over anything and you make others feel the same amount of shit you make yourself feel by giving way too many useless fucks. Seriously, I will finish the commissions I have to finish and get the fuck out of here for good. Of course some of you will accuse me of fleeing and leaving because of guilt and I bet you'll find something to point at. I can't even rest my case, I can give no arguments and even if I do, I still can't win. Ever. This combined with the makorraaction drawing drama is just making me easily decide if I should leave the internet for good. I have no more energy for this. I have real life problems I should deal with, so I apologize I actually have a life outside this virtual shithole. And last but not least, haters gonna hate. That's all I can say about this. Thank you for your support so far, it's been a bumpy ride, but I learned a lot of things in the process, including the how to ignore and repress extremely sensitive people part. But really, guys, stop trying to change other people's worlds and start by looking in the fucking mirror instead. Good night, it's been charming.

Edit: Thank you. All of you. It really does help when I see people are actually supporting me. I was expecting continuous hatred after I posted this journal for some reason, but I was surprised to see that didn't happen. Just wanted to make it clear, I do not trace, but I do compare every basic line, basic anatomy, and get a lot of help from the said position of said person. I'm a perfectionist and I tend to overcheck and overdo everything. It's just the way I am and have always been.  It's really helpful, though, my hand is now used to automatically correct everything I find wrong, so using references all this time really helped me evolve. And I'll keep doing it till the day I die. Observation is everything for me and there are so many, many things to keep observing and understanding. I really don't know why it's viewed so negatively by some people, but it's their problem and not mine. I do need a break from the internet even if I don't leave for good. So that's definitely going to happen. I'll probably come back when the sea is calm and when I become wiser. Wiser as in I can keep my shit together even if I get hatred thrown my way and I can just gladly share my work.
But really, thank you, everyone.