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Aliceindododod by andrahilde
alice in wonderland inspired. got bored with it mid-drawing and decided to fuck it up completely, haha. tried random things out for a little, not pleased with the result, but posting it either way. :)
I feel like I wanna vent here, but I'm not sure it's a good idea. I see dA like a blog of sorts where you communicate and share your ideas with other people who want the exact same thing and where you can either get support or critical reviews. But I'm still afraid of sharing my frustrations and fears publicly. I've had stones thrown at me (figuratively, thank God) for less than expressing my opinion, without having the right to even explain myself, but I really enjoy this website and it's been a safe haven for a long time. What do you guys think, can I just put away my anxiety here from time to time?
smoke eyes by andrahilde
smoke eyes
request from Joanne Andrea Barton, I can't find her dA either so I'll just put her name here till I find it :) I think the smoke is a little off, but I'll probably get back to it later. Missed posting here!
I want to thank everyone who believed in me even for a minute and never gave up on me when I did. I've been going through a major 3+ years of artblock and intense frustrations regarding this vital part of my life and character, it wasn't pretty and it influenced my general lifestyle greatly. I sadly just now realized how many people have supported me along the way, both strangers and the ones close to me, ever since I joined digital art communities and even before that. I still owe people commissions because I was literally too afraid to draw (excluding all of the problems that happened during at least 3 years of hell and making me crippled regarding everything in my life), because it wasn't even nearly good enough for anyone and because of a general anxiety regarding so many things that have been happening while playing my part as someone who loved and pursued drawing as a career. I am ashamed of my cowardly behavior and my extreme lack of self-confidence and I am immensely grateful toward the people who put up with it, not just in art, and I am striving to do better. I never ramble on Facebook because I find it useless, but it's somewhat freeing, writing a vague conclusion publicly and dedicate it to my family, friends and supporters. Thank you. 

I've also posted this on Facebook, thank you so much for all of the support and patience. If you are one of the people to whom I owe commissions/money, please send me a note about it and hopefully you'll still grant me a little bit of patience until I can get some money. I deeply apologize, I feel like shit about it and I never intended any of this to happen. Thank you all, I really miss this place and I want to come back and keep drawing now that I managed to pull myself together a little. Love you guys :heart:

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sagethethird Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2015
oh my your illustrations of men and women are fantastic! found one featured in a DA article then searched your gallery. I love it! 

I will have to watch you. If you don't mind. :)
l-WhiteFire-l Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2015
naeloj Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2014
Glad you're back, you are really an inspiring artist.
I'm not sure what happened but I hope everything will be better for you from now on!
keep-breathing Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
hello! you totally disappeared......and you stole my money, cause i asked you a commission and you never start the drawing. plus you didn't contact me for years....
this is very uncomfortable......and not honest at all!
so if you are not a thief,i'd like my money back.....
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TonyJeffers Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2014  Student
WOW! You have a super size gigantic gallery:gallery: good stuff!
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